Pissed off, Usual, Normal

The Shock is starting to wear off.

This has been a stressful week for me. I came in on Monday to find out that we where having a layoff. I kind of knew something was going to come down the pipe, I just didn’t know when. So Monday afternoon my company laid off about 60 % of the workforce. That was the shock. My department went from 26 employees to 12. I never thought we would be cut that deep.

So now we are working out how we are going to get the job done. That is putting a lot of stress on us. Not to mention losing so many friends, and the anxiety that comes with all this. Last night my wife had the effect fix for it all. First drink a beer. Second have a glass of wine with dinner. Then at bedtime take two sleeping pills. For the first night since all of this went down, I got a descent nights sleep.

Today is not so bad; I am getting caught up on what I need to keep a handle on. Perhaps the future is not so bleak, but do we have to go through this kind of crap? I can only hopes that the economy will pick up and we can hire back some of those that we lost. But for now I will just have to put my head down and plow through.
  • Current Music
    What goes around, Justin Timberlake

What is a Veteran

I never thought of it this way before. I was far too young and dumb to think of it. I look back on my time in the military and know I was too young to realize the true meaning of what I was doing when I volunteered. When I did there was no war for the USA at the time. We only had to keep up a good face in front of the Russians. Now there is a much greater sacrifice being in the military. I found this little explanation and I hope it brings a sobering thought to all that read it.

What is a Veteran
"A veteran is someone who, at one point in his or her life wrote a blank check made payable to 'The United States of America' for an amount of 'up to and including their life.'"

That is Honor, and there are way too many people in this country who no longer understand it.
Pissed off, Usual, Normal

'Political Correctness

The following is the 2007 winning entry from an annual contest at Texas A&M University calling for the most appropriate definition of a contemporary term. This year's term was Political Correctness.

The winner wrote:

'Political Correctness is a doctrine, fostered by a delusional, illogical minority, and rabidly promoted by an unscrupulous mainstream media, which holds forth the proposition that it is entirely possible to pick up a turd by the clean end.'
  • Current Music
    Pink Floyd, The Wall
Pissed off, Usual, Normal

Fantastic Hike

I must be getting old, because at one time this would have been an adventure to take. Now, it just scares the crap out of me.



If you're looking for a thrill today - this is it - absolutely mesmerizing! Hang on to your safety gear. Originally built in 1901, this walkway now serves as an approach to Makinodromo, the famous climbing sector of El Chorro, Spain. If you can, watch it in full screen. The icon is on the video.

Pissed off, Usual, Normal

Calm and Anger

So today is a good day, well as good as can be expected, or better than yesterday. We are handling the situation better.

But as I sit down to write, I am finding that there is anger as well as calm running through me. Calm in knowing that we will get through this. But Anger at a couple of my friends, I have had for a very long time. We where in the military together, Colorado, and Germany, and I thought I would have heard from then the same day. But nope have not heard a peep from them.

So now I am in this mode of, NOPE I am not calling them. What would be the point? They have known Denise and I for as long as we have been together. Hell Derrick was the best man at my wedding! The more I write the madder I get, but maybe that is good. So I’ll calm down before I get home. Denise does not need me being pissed off at anyone.
Pissed off, Usual, Normal

The Dungeon

I escaped from the Dungeon of GOTHBOIBLINKIE!

I killed Baronlaw the kobold, Chadu the cockatrice, Kcw the rat, Dutchletters the giant spider and Cooperati the kobold.

I looted a Figurine of Animagus Me, the Shield of Zen, the Sword of Azaere, the Wand of Sensuality, the Crown of Twilitesidhe and 80 gold pieces.

Score: 205

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In the Waiting room

I have been trying to figure out what to write. It has been a week and 3 days since we started chemotherapy and radiation therapy. I am in the waiting room with Denise as we waits for her appointment. She is calm; it is becoming a routine for her. That is good I think. No more do we wonder what is going to happen, but it is started and we have an end date.

I have to admit it the stress of it all is getting to me. Not so much physically, but mentally. Which then turns into the physical. But what is my stress about? That is what gets me. I am the support. The one keeping a good attitude, and just being the rock, ok I think I am doing that part. You would have to ask Denise if I am actually pulling it off.

I support her in any way I can. Just keeping her focused on the healing, relaxing, and not stressing over anything. If I can do that, then I will consider myself a success. She is already a success in my eyes. I hope I can do as well as she is, if I ever come up with an illness like hers.

The Water Carrier, Aquarian Traits

So is this me? Do I fit this description of an Aquarius? You be the judge.

The Water Carrier
January 21 to February 19
Aquarian Traits

Friendly and humanitarian
Honest and loyal
Original and inventive
Independent and intellectual

On the dark side....

Intractable and contrary
Perverse and unpredictable
Unemotional and detached

Pissed off, Usual, Normal

Missed Birthdays

Lets see I have been remiss in my wishing of Birthdays. First goes out to Ben, born on the day of the Ground Hog! Happy B-Day to You!

Next is Greg

Hey Happy B-Day to you! …

I had panned to call or text both of you on your respected days. But NO … I could not get up off my sorry ass and do either. So I am sending this one out to you both.

:: mememememememem :::

Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday Dear Ben and Greg!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Happy Birthday to you!

Hope the both of you got all that you wanted, or needed on your days of Birth!!!